I spent the last 2 days of my weekend with this little lady. She is my baby cousin, K. I remember when she was just a little tiny baby. Her and I basically 'click', we always have. We both feel like outsiders, share the same likes, do crazy things and are amazed by the smallest, to name a few. So when we are together there is no stopping.
On Sunday night we sat in the street talking. Talking about everything, everyone, every problem. I won't go into details but honestly, how can we all prevent now from tearing apart into little pieces?
I have a big family. Both sides are big.
We also have many secrets. Many dreadful ones.
One's that if another finds out it will either lead to disowning, nervous breakdown and many, many worsen things.
It's hard to handle sometimes.
I use to think it was me. That I was just being overally sensitive. But prevention is the key. Many things are hard to prevent.
I tend to not speak of my family to anyone or of any problems but I don't come off as pretending we are perfect. I guess it seems as though it is easier for me to deal with then for everyone to know my problems.
And it's not that my family can't be trusted or if we feel ashamed of many things that has happen or what a person is going through. It just seems as thought some things are better kept a secret than to half to deal with extra drama, worrying or even (the worse of all) heartbreak. The prevention of tearing apart.
If you have gone through this, how do you deal with?