I failed the midterm that I mention before here.
I got a D. 19 points out of 30.
My class average right now is an D. Sheesh
My teacher has pride and hope in me though, according to her.....
Because she knows I am trying.
I've aced everything else in the class.
The discussions, the first few quizzes and my participation is outstanding.
I help out other students and communicate with her a lot [although it's all online].
I will bring it up to at least a B. I can't accept a C.
Ughhhh. Critically thinking is hard. I just don't get it. None of it makes any sense.
Meanwhile, I took some shots of myself this morning.
To clear a few things off my mind.
Such things as the fact that I need $500 by the first week of February
and how my boyfriends parents frustrated me
and how it makes me mad that for the second year in row I probably won't be going to county youth fair
and how am I going to cope with spending 6-8 months in an neonatal intensive care unit watching and helping little babies fight to save their little lives... or.. die.... and watching their families be afraid and cry
and how I am going to complete 5 classes this summer in 6-12 weeks [average term is 18-20 but summer terms are shorter]
and the course I am currently doing bad in and how I need to do better.
That is all I've been thinking about. All day. From sun up, to sun down and even in my sleep. At some point here and there I walk away from it and I go elsewhere. But then I am back to it all again. and again. and again. and once more. then again. and so on. Of course I think of other things and of people but you get it.
I need to get back to it all, again. Have a good week everyone.